arrggghhhh... pek chek siar!!!

Today I msn him how long is he going to hog onto the current line im signing for him? he told me by this year end (he will try)... I pissed... super duper pissed when his msn personal message wrote JOHNATHAN LOVE LYNN ... I wanna puked!!!

About the money he owed me a week ago I sms him has he trf the money over to me, day 1 no reply, day 2 i sms him again askin him did he rcvd my sms, shd hv least courteousy to reply Y/N... day 3 sms him again ... then he tell me he last min got tight financial & cant pay me back. Actually Im not that furious if I didn't see the photos he posted on facebook in the hotel (AGAIN)~ and moreover its in my FAVE HOTEL!!! im super duper upset & depressed...

I told him that when he asked me for help and I help, I dun enjoy chasing him every month like a mad woman asking him to pay his debts. Really sick & tired of it.
I just wanna clear shit & settle it and get it over. He told me he will try and kept saying sorry. Driving me nuts, beside saying sorry to me & it seems that he cant say anything else... WDF!!!! i told him he sure can ... lessen his visits to hotels sure can de ...

Guess wad??!! He asked me not to mistaken abt him and those hotel trips are not paid by him, its his galfren. I nearly fainted... suddenly I felt tat this man I once knew now letting me feel that he's worthless for me to pin any more more on him. I should really face the reality and move on... once these 2 issues are settled I wont contact him anymore (through all channels be it HP, MSN & even FACEBOOK etc).

The more I thought of it, the more heartpain I felt... can only describe the feeling of 心灰意冷 that I having nowww... im so gg to hibernate & hibernate & hibernate ... 

真的是“没眼看“ （in cantonese)!

Such an eyesore ... He kept on posting pictures he took with her in a hotel room.
First time I saw it, kinda feeling sour. 2nd time when I saw it, Im upset. 3rd time when I saw it ..
I actually felt disgusted. I don't know why either.

Am I still into him? Nope.

In fact, I felt that all these while he keep bringing her to hotel room actually makes me feel its not only sleazy but also doesn't reflect very well on the person. Coz why? Because he can't bring the girl home!
Every trip to the hotel isn't that cheap in Singapore unless they are visiting hotel 81 chains and hoping to get VIP membership eh??

Im pissed... really pissed.

Shouldn't helped him out by borrowing him money... im damn stupid~ Waiting for him to payback by monthly installments is draggy and troublesome. arrggghhhh~~~~~~